what was I thinking!!!!!!!!

Wed night I was going to fry some potatoes with seasoning for dinner. I stepped away from the stove and came back and the oil was burning. Not thinking, I took the pan to go and dump the oil out. I don't know what I was thinking... so dumb. It splatted all over my right hand and on the floor and now I have 2nd degree burns on my hand. IT is the most painful thing Ever! I was in so much pain. I sat and soaked my hand for an hour. Dave was still at work so I called him and told him to rush home. I had my right hand in a soaking bowl as I was throwing goldfish at my kids to eat while Dave came home to make them dinner. It was horrible. I was in so much pain. I would rather go through labor than have second degree burns. I was so thankful that Claire wasn't crawling around on the floor like she usually is while I make dinner. Everyone was down playing in the basement so they didn't see any of this happen. I took some pain medicine and went to sleep. I didn't want to go to the emergency room after hours. I woke up the next day and my thumb has a huge blister on it and my skin all around my thumb is all purple. I about passed out it was so gross looking. I called my family Dr. that I haven't seen in 3 years and told them and they told me to come right in. I was at the Dr. for 2 hours. Luckily Dave was able to work from home Thursday and Friday. He basically has done everything. The Dr. said I couldn't get it wet through the weekend. No baths, no dishes... so Dave has done a lot. The family Dr. was worried that it may have been more severe and since it was so bubbly and she couldn't see my knuckle so she sent me to a plastic surgeon. I also had to get my tetanus shot since I was up for another one and you should when you get a burn I guess. That was really painful the next day. Now I feel a little bad for my kids when they are always going to the Dr. and getting shots. Poor kids. I passed out once in my life, when I got laser eye surgery. As my family Dr. was talking about my blister and maybe having the plastic surgeon cut away the dead skin I almost passed out. The thought of anyone touching my hand was awful. I had to lay down at the Dr. office for a while before they would let me leave. I can do pregnancy and delivery I just can't do gross blood and sores. It was an awful day. I now have lots of bandages and cream and some really good drugs. I was telling Dave that I really do need the pain relief drugs because about every 4 hours I can feel when it is starting to wear off and I start feeling pain again. The plastic surgeon said it was fine and not that deep. I am going back in a week to get it all cleaned up and cut away. I don't know how I will deal with that. Maybe take some good drugs before I go in. Yuck. I am never cooking again... atleast not with oil.